I just woke up from my dream around 1pm, had a long 12 hours sleep in what seemed to be ages.
And the dream was oddly awesome yet heart-wrenching.
I dreamt of my crush of 2 years, (I had actually got over him a year ago ...) requesting me to get in a relationship with him. I was walking to somewhere (I forgot), and he started talking to me then and our relationship bloomed. He was my ideal height, and so obviously I was so happy. And I started spending time with him everyday, sort of ignoring my best girl friends.
Oh, I asked him where did he stay and where is he schooling, he told me he stays in Tampines and studies at Temasak Polytechnic, but in my dream, I was just wondering why did he stay so far away from me.
We went drinking and for some reason, while walking down a hill, I was completely sober but I decided to pretend to fall, maybe to see whether he would grab me? And he did, with another guy friend. And maybe the way he carried me was so comfortable , I fell asleep, and woke up with me sleeping in his lap and leaning on his shoulder. And waking up to his beautiful smile.
There were many other moments in my dream, but all I vaguely remembered is that I yearned for his body contact, for him to hug me and hold me. I think I got lost somewhere and that's when I woke up, breathless and yearning for someone to be there for me, like what my virtual me had, a sweet partner.
But then, I starting tearing, as this dream would never happen in reality. There are just so many signs in this unreal dream ...
1) In my dream, my boyfriend was just half a head taller than me; my crush in reality was ... 190cm.
2) I spent a lot of time with him in my dream, almost everyday actually. But I would never abandon my besties for my boyfriend, I would still spend time with them equally in reality.
3) My crush in reality studies in a Junior College and lives in the West.
4) I HATE DRINKING, JUST HATE THE STENCH OF BEER.
With the many signs, it was difficult to pretend this dream might come true.
But the scariest thing from this dream was why did my crush say he lived in Tampines. Why not Orchard or something else. And why Temasak Polytechnic. Why not Singapore Polytechnic.
This may be signs of my future boyfriend, which I am afraid to know ...
ARGH WHATEVER. This is just another nonsensical dream ...
Till the next post, MLLEMERCURIAL.
Sunday, 2 June 2013
Friday, 30 November 2012
Has the wall around me collapsed or that I have to release my feelings bottled for ages?
I don't know why I've been feeling sentimental these past week. Whenever I quarrel or argue with my parents or best friend, I would start breaking down in the quiet of my room. I wasn't like this. I used to be really strong. Nothing could make me tear easily. But now, I do not just shed one or a few tears, but cry with scarring tears leaving a trail in their path. I do not understand why all the emotional thoughts. Perhaps the wall I have bulit around me has collapsed, leaving me vulnerable? Or was it time for me to release my pent-up sorrow and grief?
The lesson I've learnt is that I should find a pillar of support soon. Someone who knows and understands my feelings thoroughly. But it seems impossible.
I'm always the lone person in an odd-numbered group. I'm mostly invisible until I find a way to get their attention, and even then, I'm only 15% successful. I may be too soft-spoken I guess. Or are others easily distracted?
In any case, I just hope I wouldn't be so vulnerable to silly matters of the heart. I wouldn't want to waste time crying.
~MLLEMERCURIAL~
The lesson I've learnt is that I should find a pillar of support soon. Someone who knows and understands my feelings thoroughly. But it seems impossible.
I'm always the lone person in an odd-numbered group. I'm mostly invisible until I find a way to get their attention, and even then, I'm only 15% successful. I may be too soft-spoken I guess. Or are others easily distracted?
In any case, I just hope I wouldn't be so vulnerable to silly matters of the heart. I wouldn't want to waste time crying.
~MLLEMERCURIAL~
Sunday, 18 November 2012
What if it all turns out to be a dream?
Hi, this shall be a rather sentimental post. I had a dream, a happy dream. I dreamt of this guy A (whom I shall not name) professing his love for me.
The dream goes like this ...
I was heading for dinner. But I had no idea why it was with many random people. Maids, teachers and many other of my school's students. The weirdest thing was it was held at a large house. So, my seat at the dinner table was leaning against another chair (we had to sit separate tables due to the lack of space). Guy A, who behind me kept moving his chair against mine, which was annoying. I could take it no longer and I stood up to walk away. Little did I know, Guy A ran after me. He gently held my arm and asked, "Why are you running away?" Obviously I replied saying that he was irritating me. Then he said, "But I was confessing to you." I don't see how that was confessing but anyways.
I shook his hand away, for I was shocked. I walked to the nearest bedroom and sat on one bed, he sat on the opposite one. And he said, "Would you go steady with me?"
And truthly, in my dream, I think I felt a certain attraction towards him. When he said that, the butterflies in my stomach fluttered and my heart skipped a beat. But I changed the topics as I wasn't certain of my feelings towards him. Till he said, "I ignored what others said."
And his hand gently stroked my cheek, my neck and my head, caringly, not possessively, which was what I yearned. He even said that he was working. And the implication of that was that he could support me. Which was mature thinking and planning for the future.
Seeing his face longingly looking at me, I felt an overwhelming sense to be Guy A's mental support. I had wondered how his hair would look like in another hairstyle, hence I ruffled his hair. He didn't shove my hand away, which was a good start. Seeing him with a hint of a smile, I hugged him for I had decided to accept his proposal.
He reciprocated.
Pulling away, he had tears in his black, almond-shaped eyes. Upon asking why he cried, he answered, "Because you were mad at me earlier."
See what I mean about Guy A? He is sweet, cares about my feelings and so on. I don't know why we students had to help out at this pasar malam, so I kissed him on the cheek, saying "You know what this implies?" In reply, he grinned his biggest ever smile.
The rest is not really relevant. We just had to do some labour work and I woke up, while falling from a chair at the last instant.
I don't know how long we lasted, or whether Guy A decided to break up with me for I'm too clumsy. But what I do know, was that I hoped the dream was real. The feelings I had in the dream was so real-like and genuine. If only Guy A was like this in reality, sentimental and caring. Because the Guy A I know isn't like that, or maybe I haven't known him well enough.
I almost teared when I woke up and realised it was all just a stupid, bloody dream.
Shall end off here. If this dream continues, I'll keep you all posted. Till then, seeya all! ^^
~MLLEMERCURIAL~
The dream goes like this ...
I was heading for dinner. But I had no idea why it was with many random people. Maids, teachers and many other of my school's students. The weirdest thing was it was held at a large house. So, my seat at the dinner table was leaning against another chair (we had to sit separate tables due to the lack of space). Guy A, who behind me kept moving his chair against mine, which was annoying. I could take it no longer and I stood up to walk away. Little did I know, Guy A ran after me. He gently held my arm and asked, "Why are you running away?" Obviously I replied saying that he was irritating me. Then he said, "But I was confessing to you." I don't see how that was confessing but anyways.
I shook his hand away, for I was shocked. I walked to the nearest bedroom and sat on one bed, he sat on the opposite one. And he said, "Would you go steady with me?"
And truthly, in my dream, I think I felt a certain attraction towards him. When he said that, the butterflies in my stomach fluttered and my heart skipped a beat. But I changed the topics as I wasn't certain of my feelings towards him. Till he said, "I ignored what others said."
And his hand gently stroked my cheek, my neck and my head, caringly, not possessively, which was what I yearned. He even said that he was working. And the implication of that was that he could support me. Which was mature thinking and planning for the future.
Seeing his face longingly looking at me, I felt an overwhelming sense to be Guy A's mental support. I had wondered how his hair would look like in another hairstyle, hence I ruffled his hair. He didn't shove my hand away, which was a good start. Seeing him with a hint of a smile, I hugged him for I had decided to accept his proposal.
He reciprocated.
Pulling away, he had tears in his black, almond-shaped eyes. Upon asking why he cried, he answered, "Because you were mad at me earlier."
See what I mean about Guy A? He is sweet, cares about my feelings and so on. I don't know why we students had to help out at this pasar malam, so I kissed him on the cheek, saying "You know what this implies?" In reply, he grinned his biggest ever smile.
The rest is not really relevant. We just had to do some labour work and I woke up, while falling from a chair at the last instant.
I don't know how long we lasted, or whether Guy A decided to break up with me for I'm too clumsy. But what I do know, was that I hoped the dream was real. The feelings I had in the dream was so real-like and genuine. If only Guy A was like this in reality, sentimental and caring. Because the Guy A I know isn't like that, or maybe I haven't known him well enough.
I almost teared when I woke up and realised it was all just a stupid, bloody dream.
Shall end off here. If this dream continues, I'll keep you all posted. Till then, seeya all! ^^
~MLLEMERCURIAL~
Tuesday, 30 October 2012
What right do I have?
Hello! Been a while eh?
Well, don't ask me why I'm here blogging instead of studying for my National exams, as well, I ... I'll tell you later.
Hmm, I got my first taste of REDBULL a few days back, with my sister and her friend, and it was unlike what I expected. It was sweet! I had thought it would taste like beer! Well, kinda pathetic eh. My first shot of REDBULL at the age of sweet sixteen. Oh well, at least I tried it before I died~
Okay, well, I'm the kind of person who gives people second chances. And I think that people may have been misjudging this particular guy, who had caused us much grief and sorrow. I had just came across his profile on Twitter, and read his tweets, till a particular one stood out. There was a mild inclination that he felt he was being unfairly misunderstood. Even though he did his best to hide it, but I could feel it, the pain that he was being despised. In the beginning, due to the many evidences we had, all of us thought he was the one. And maybe he might have been. But now, it has been months. Most of us has forgotten the story behind that blue jacket, the source of the problem. None of us would think of that fateful day when we wear it. In fact, it keeps us warm ironically. Hence, I feel that we should give him another chance, he might have been scared out of his wits that day. Okay, you might think that I'm being too forgiving (if you know what I'm talking about), but we should let that matter rest, let bygones be bygones. Okay, everyone? Give him another chance~ But what right do I have to tell people not to judge when I do it myself as well?
Now, down to why I'm here. I need to just talk to people who won't judge. My own blog, where it can't react to whatever I say. I feel that so far, my exams have been relatively manageable except for my Amaths. As long as I can pass that, I'm satisfied, I don't need a distinction, just a pass. Please.
But even if I don't get it, or even my desired score, I admit and resign to my fate. As the saying goes, "You reap what you sow." I haven't sowed anything, what can I reap? I haven't been putting in much effort to study, just doing the bare minimal. I just have a black belt in procrastination, I can't motivate myself to spur on. I just can't. Hence, if I get a double digit, I know that it was expected. What right do I have to score better than someone who put in tons more effort than me? None. Hence, I will not blame anyone else but myself if I do not score well.
Haiz, talked too much sentimental stuff today. Tomorrow is my Biology exam, shall study a little now, before having my beauty sleep, and rising earlier tmr to revise more.
Signing off, ~ANGELICDEVIL~
Well, don't ask me why I'm here blogging instead of studying for my National exams, as well, I ... I'll tell you later.
Hmm, I got my first taste of REDBULL a few days back, with my sister and her friend, and it was unlike what I expected. It was sweet! I had thought it would taste like beer! Well, kinda pathetic eh. My first shot of REDBULL at the age of sweet sixteen. Oh well, at least I tried it before I died~
Okay, well, I'm the kind of person who gives people second chances. And I think that people may have been misjudging this particular guy, who had caused us much grief and sorrow. I had just came across his profile on Twitter, and read his tweets, till a particular one stood out. There was a mild inclination that he felt he was being unfairly misunderstood. Even though he did his best to hide it, but I could feel it, the pain that he was being despised. In the beginning, due to the many evidences we had, all of us thought he was the one. And maybe he might have been. But now, it has been months. Most of us has forgotten the story behind that blue jacket, the source of the problem. None of us would think of that fateful day when we wear it. In fact, it keeps us warm ironically. Hence, I feel that we should give him another chance, he might have been scared out of his wits that day. Okay, you might think that I'm being too forgiving (if you know what I'm talking about), but we should let that matter rest, let bygones be bygones. Okay, everyone? Give him another chance~ But what right do I have to tell people not to judge when I do it myself as well?
Now, down to why I'm here. I need to just talk to people who won't judge. My own blog, where it can't react to whatever I say. I feel that so far, my exams have been relatively manageable except for my Amaths. As long as I can pass that, I'm satisfied, I don't need a distinction, just a pass. Please.
But even if I don't get it, or even my desired score, I admit and resign to my fate. As the saying goes, "You reap what you sow." I haven't sowed anything, what can I reap? I haven't been putting in much effort to study, just doing the bare minimal. I just have a black belt in procrastination, I can't motivate myself to spur on. I just can't. Hence, if I get a double digit, I know that it was expected. What right do I have to score better than someone who put in tons more effort than me? None. Hence, I will not blame anyone else but myself if I do not score well.
Haiz, talked too much sentimental stuff today. Tomorrow is my Biology exam, shall study a little now, before having my beauty sleep, and rising earlier tmr to revise more.
Signing off, ~ANGELICDEVIL~
Tuesday, 9 October 2012
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME~
Hello people! Back after a long- wait. It's LOOOOONNNNNGGGGG break. Hahaha.
Okays, shall give you all a little recap over what has happened to me, nothing serious of course, or I wouldn't be here. Heheh.
Firstly, my Prelim 2 results. I think I got like 24 for my L1R5, and 14 for my L1R4. Hmm, how can that be possible, you might be thinking, such a huge difference?! Yeah, neither I know why, but since the system (supposingly it's reliable) counted it for me, i'm hoping it's true, so at least I'm just 4points away from my desired course in Ngee Ann Poly. Then I'll prove to everyone I'm not the dumb girl that I am. YES I WILL.
Secondly, I'M NOW SO-CALLED OBSESSED WITH YTF, OR RATHER, RYANHIGA!!! <3 He is just plain awesome and dashing in all his videos! I anticipate more of his new videos, and I re-watch his videos, I think countless times! I ADORE HIM ALOT!!! <3 Thirdly, I'll update my idol fanbase HAHAHA. Shall tell you all now and maybe add some pictures in my next post (which might be centuries later) kay? ORIGINAL : Kim Jonghyun, Jung Yonghwa, Chris Hemsworth and Kim Taeyeon. NOW : All the above plus Jung iLwoo, RyanHiga, Jesseca Liu and Hayden Panettiere! If you Google them, you'll see that I have taste in both females and hunks HAHAH! Cause they're all so pretty and handsome~ HAHAHA! Okay ... Now's not the time to be fangirling ><
Lastly, if you all don't know, IT'S MY BIRTHDAY TODAY! Well, I'm supposed to be happy today, but it seems like any other ordinary day. Why? Cause the atmosphere just isn't there. It just doesn't seem like a special occasion. And frankly speaking, I'm kinda disappointed. Friends whom I thought would remember, didn't bother to wish me at least. Friends whom I've spent so much time and effort on, well, didn't seem to me like they'll put in the same effort in future. Ohwell.
But my friends (Zihui, Mirian, Alvin, Jarel, Rusyaidi) did surprise me with a chocolate cake and a birthday song! Although we couldn't finish it and I gave it to the bookshop aunties, but THANKYOU STILL~
And I've gotten some nice and lovely presents this time round! I got a polka dotted blue small bagpack, a beautiful dress and Famous Amos cookies by my sisters, SHIYA, VENESSA AND KIMBERLEY respectively!!!~
Also, my real sister gave me three novels and a $10 voucher from Kinokuniya! My youngest sister gave me a hairtie ribbon too~
JIAYI, gave me a cute notebook with an equally adorable giraffe correction tape!
SO THANK YOU PEOPLE FOR YOUR WONDERFUL PRESENTS! LOVE THEM ALOT! ^~^
Kay, this shall be dedicated to my mum. Even though she wasn't around as she went for a course, she didn't forget the yearly routine of giving a red packet to the birthday child. She tasked my dad to pass it to me, and when I retrieved from his hand, it was thick. Like extraordinary thicker. I thought it was filled with many $2 notes, as I knew my parents could not afford much, but I was wrong! The red packet contained 5 $10 notes, totalling to $50!!! Well I expected just $16, as my parents only give us red packets according to our ages, so this was beyond my wildest dreams!!! SO THANKYOU BOTH MUMMY AND DADDY~!!!
Hahah, actually looking back, my day went past quite smoothly and happily, considering the fact that people still owe me pressies~ hehehe :P
So I shall take a pic next time to show you guys what I've got~
Phew. What a long post. My fingers are numb from typing this through my phone while my eyelids are drooping. I'm yawning as well. Have I made you guys yawn yet? HAHAHA.
Allright! It's been a long day eh? THANKYOU for reading this lengthy post and have a good night! :D
Signing off, ~ANGELICDEVIL~
Okays, shall give you all a little recap over what has happened to me, nothing serious of course, or I wouldn't be here. Heheh.
Firstly, my Prelim 2 results. I think I got like 24 for my L1R5, and 14 for my L1R4. Hmm, how can that be possible, you might be thinking, such a huge difference?! Yeah, neither I know why, but since the system (supposingly it's reliable) counted it for me, i'm hoping it's true, so at least I'm just 4points away from my desired course in Ngee Ann Poly. Then I'll prove to everyone I'm not the dumb girl that I am. YES I WILL.
Secondly, I'M NOW SO-CALLED OBSESSED WITH YTF, OR RATHER, RYANHIGA!!! <3 He is just plain awesome and dashing in all his videos! I anticipate more of his new videos, and I re-watch his videos, I think countless times! I ADORE HIM ALOT!!! <3 Thirdly, I'll update my idol fanbase HAHAHA. Shall tell you all now and maybe add some pictures in my next post (which might be centuries later) kay? ORIGINAL : Kim Jonghyun, Jung Yonghwa, Chris Hemsworth and Kim Taeyeon. NOW : All the above plus Jung iLwoo, RyanHiga, Jesseca Liu and Hayden Panettiere! If you Google them, you'll see that I have taste in both females and hunks HAHAH! Cause they're all so pretty and handsome~ HAHAHA! Okay ... Now's not the time to be fangirling ><
Lastly, if you all don't know, IT'S MY BIRTHDAY TODAY! Well, I'm supposed to be happy today, but it seems like any other ordinary day. Why? Cause the atmosphere just isn't there. It just doesn't seem like a special occasion. And frankly speaking, I'm kinda disappointed. Friends whom I thought would remember, didn't bother to wish me at least. Friends whom I've spent so much time and effort on, well, didn't seem to me like they'll put in the same effort in future. Ohwell.
But my friends (Zihui, Mirian, Alvin, Jarel, Rusyaidi) did surprise me with a chocolate cake and a birthday song! Although we couldn't finish it and I gave it to the bookshop aunties, but THANKYOU STILL~
And I've gotten some nice and lovely presents this time round! I got a polka dotted blue small bagpack, a beautiful dress and Famous Amos cookies by my sisters, SHIYA, VENESSA AND KIMBERLEY respectively!!!~
Also, my real sister gave me three novels and a $10 voucher from Kinokuniya! My youngest sister gave me a hairtie ribbon too~
JIAYI, gave me a cute notebook with an equally adorable giraffe correction tape!
SO THANK YOU PEOPLE FOR YOUR WONDERFUL PRESENTS! LOVE THEM ALOT! ^~^
Kay, this shall be dedicated to my mum. Even though she wasn't around as she went for a course, she didn't forget the yearly routine of giving a red packet to the birthday child. She tasked my dad to pass it to me, and when I retrieved from his hand, it was thick. Like extraordinary thicker. I thought it was filled with many $2 notes, as I knew my parents could not afford much, but I was wrong! The red packet contained 5 $10 notes, totalling to $50!!! Well I expected just $16, as my parents only give us red packets according to our ages, so this was beyond my wildest dreams!!! SO THANKYOU BOTH MUMMY AND DADDY~!!!
Hahah, actually looking back, my day went past quite smoothly and happily, considering the fact that people still owe me pressies~ hehehe :P
So I shall take a pic next time to show you guys what I've got~
Phew. What a long post. My fingers are numb from typing this through my phone while my eyelids are drooping. I'm yawning as well. Have I made you guys yawn yet? HAHAHA.
Allright! It's been a long day eh? THANKYOU for reading this lengthy post and have a good night! :D
Signing off, ~ANGELICDEVIL~
Saturday, 18 August 2012
Fell from cloud nine.
Back again.
Well, I got back by O'level Mother Tongue (MT) and Direct Poly Admission (DPA) results yesterday and I was happy yet ... miserable.
I attained a B3, with a Distinction for my Oral for MT. I had expected a B3 for my Mother Tongue written exams, for my Chinese isn't that awesome in the first place. So I just predicted a B3, which came true. An A would be an added bonus for me. But getting a distinction was JUST AMAZING! I HAD NEVER EXPECTED TO GET A DISTINCTION! In fact, I was afraid I would even fail it! So it was PURE JOY AND ASTONISHMENT to me! (:
However, the worst was to come. At 2pm, I logged onto the DPA Portal to retrieve my results, and reality hit me. I wasn't accepted into my desired course. I fell from cloud nine. That day, I just kept thinking of how my life would change if I was accepted. Being accepted, I need not have to work so hard to get all As for my subjects as well, the criteria would be much more lenient. Now, as the cut off point is a 10, I am so gonna die, trying to get excellent results! Or else, I couldn't get into my favourite course. Even till now, I keep questioning myself where did I go wrong during the interview. Why couldn't I meet their pre-requisities?! Haiz. )):
So yeah. Oh, my English exam went smoothly I guess. I had no hiccups, and finished Section One of my compo in like 30mins? I was literally rushing to complete it, lest I had a lack of time. But I bet my storyline is so unrealistic.
The question was , " Write about a time where you were treated unfairly but it turned out to be a blessing in disguise." And you know what I wrote?
Student councillors in my school were going on a trip to New York --> the coaches had no seat for me --> I cabbed to the airport --> missed the plane --> terrorists hijacked the plane --> plane crashed into the North Tower --> everyone on board died --> except me. hehehe.
Isn't it like WHATTT?! Actually, I wanted to link the essay to 9/11, but unfortunately, after I handed up my scripts did I realise I had totally missed that part out. Oh well.
So, shall end here. Need rush over to granny's house. Seeya all! ^~^
~ANGELICDEVIL~
Well, I got back by O'level Mother Tongue (MT) and Direct Poly Admission (DPA) results yesterday and I was happy yet ... miserable.
I attained a B3, with a Distinction for my Oral for MT. I had expected a B3 for my Mother Tongue written exams, for my Chinese isn't that awesome in the first place. So I just predicted a B3, which came true. An A would be an added bonus for me. But getting a distinction was JUST AMAZING! I HAD NEVER EXPECTED TO GET A DISTINCTION! In fact, I was afraid I would even fail it! So it was PURE JOY AND ASTONISHMENT to me! (:
However, the worst was to come. At 2pm, I logged onto the DPA Portal to retrieve my results, and reality hit me. I wasn't accepted into my desired course. I fell from cloud nine. That day, I just kept thinking of how my life would change if I was accepted. Being accepted, I need not have to work so hard to get all As for my subjects as well, the criteria would be much more lenient. Now, as the cut off point is a 10, I am so gonna die, trying to get excellent results! Or else, I couldn't get into my favourite course. Even till now, I keep questioning myself where did I go wrong during the interview. Why couldn't I meet their pre-requisities?! Haiz. )):
So yeah. Oh, my English exam went smoothly I guess. I had no hiccups, and finished Section One of my compo in like 30mins? I was literally rushing to complete it, lest I had a lack of time. But I bet my storyline is so unrealistic.
The question was , " Write about a time where you were treated unfairly but it turned out to be a blessing in disguise." And you know what I wrote?
Student councillors in my school were going on a trip to New York --> the coaches had no seat for me --> I cabbed to the airport --> missed the plane --> terrorists hijacked the plane --> plane crashed into the North Tower --> everyone on board died --> except me. hehehe.
Isn't it like WHATTT?! Actually, I wanted to link the essay to 9/11, but unfortunately, after I handed up my scripts did I realise I had totally missed that part out. Oh well.
So, shall end here. Need rush over to granny's house. Seeya all! ^~^
~ANGELICDEVIL~
Wednesday, 15 August 2012
Pre-exam jitters ...
Am back! Haven't been blogging in ages!! OMG. It may be because I'm busy right now, in the midst of preparing for my upcoming Prelims! I mean, which Secondary Four student isn't?
Okay, tomorrow is my official English Oral exam! I find that I'm quite confident in my Reading and my Picture Discussion should be not too bad, but my Conversation really gives me the jitters!! I can't even manage a decent speech, and you want me to talk NON-STOP for FIVE MINUTES?! I can just die, or rather, anyone not confident can die too ><
I'm hoping to score 10/12 for my Passage, 9/12 for my Picture, and 11/16 for my Conversation. This would give me an A1 just nice on the dot. Let's hope my Guardian Angel(s) is/are especially looking out for me tomorrow and pouring down on me good vocabulary that I can use in my Oral (:
So, my Prelims are coming up too! But the funny thing is that I don't feel stressed until I reach the exam venue, which is like, too late eh? Well, I get scared, I panic and break out in cold sweat too, but somehow, all these are not motivating me. And not making me work harder! Even now as I'm typing this, I don't feel stressed to practice my Oral or revise more, even though I'm afraid of what I would score.
Oh, by the way, I'm aiming for an A2 in all of my subjects for Prelims 2! Yes, I know it's a far cry from what I'm scoring now (I got 26 for my L1R5, 18 for LiR4),
but heyy, no harm in trying and being optimistic right? It might even spur me to do better! :D
All right, shall end here now. Need to start completing my homework and assignments on time to start the ball rolling. It's never too late for anything. Well, unless you're dead. CHOYY!
So shall be back maybe in a week? Sayonara! ^~^
~ANGELICDEVIL~
Okay, tomorrow is my official English Oral exam! I find that I'm quite confident in my Reading and my Picture Discussion should be not too bad, but my Conversation really gives me the jitters!! I can't even manage a decent speech, and you want me to talk NON-STOP for FIVE MINUTES?! I can just die, or rather, anyone not confident can die too ><
I'm hoping to score 10/12 for my Passage, 9/12 for my Picture, and 11/16 for my Conversation. This would give me an A1 just nice on the dot. Let's hope my Guardian Angel(s) is/are especially looking out for me tomorrow and pouring down on me good vocabulary that I can use in my Oral (:
So, my Prelims are coming up too! But the funny thing is that I don't feel stressed until I reach the exam venue, which is like, too late eh? Well, I get scared, I panic and break out in cold sweat too, but somehow, all these are not motivating me. And not making me work harder! Even now as I'm typing this, I don't feel stressed to practice my Oral or revise more, even though I'm afraid of what I would score.
Oh, by the way, I'm aiming for an A2 in all of my subjects for Prelims 2! Yes, I know it's a far cry from what I'm scoring now (I got 26 for my L1R5, 18 for LiR4),
but heyy, no harm in trying and being optimistic right? It might even spur me to do better! :D
All right, shall end here now. Need to start completing my homework and assignments on time to start the ball rolling. It's never too late for anything. Well, unless you're dead. CHOYY!
So shall be back maybe in a week? Sayonara! ^~^
~ANGELICDEVIL~
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